Following the death of influential rapper Mac Miller, Ariana Grande took to social media to share her thoughts in regards to her late ex-boyfriend.

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On Sept. 7, rapper Mac Miller passed away from a drug overdose. Aside from sharing a touching black and white photo, sans caption, of the late rapper on Instagram last week, Grande has rightfully remained pretty quiet about the tragedy.


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Grande has been met with a large amount of backlash concerning Miller’s death on various social media platforms. However, today Grande broke her silence to share a heartfelt home video of Miller on Instagram. Accompanying the video is a tear-jerking caption.

“I adored you from the day I met you when I was 19 and I always will,” Grande says. “I can’t believe you aren’t here anymore. I really can’t wrap my head around it. We talked about this. So many times.”

Grande went on to express her conflicting emotions of anger, grief and sorrow.

“I’m so sorry I couldn’t fix or take your pain away,” Grande says in the post. “I really wanted to.”

You can read Grande’s full Instagram post below.

The couple split in May 2018. Following frequent criticisms of their break-up, Grande took to Twitter to say that shaming women for leaving toxic relationships was a harmful tactic.

Let’s all keep this in mind as we support Grande through this difficult time.