During their recent show in Dallas, Texas, Brand New’s ever-enigmatic frontman Jesse Lacey broke down a small piece of the band’s mystery with some heartfelt dialog on their past. “We’re getting older, and it’s so nice to be able to come out and, night after night, be able to play all of this music that represents our adolescence and our growth as people. And also our connection and relationship that we’ve created with you. Thank you so much for allowing that to happen for us.” 

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He continued, “What’s funny is [that] I’m 37, and when you start playing music, night after night, from decades ago, you start to reflect on who you were when you were younger and the things you wrote music about. A lot of what we write music about is the uncertainty of being young, and trying to figure out who you are in the world, and what it’s going to be like when you grow older, and who it is you’re going to find, right? That’s what all of these songs are about—that’s what this song is about. It’s really hard when you’re young and you’re like, ‘This is never gonna work; I’m never gonna figure this out.’ And then one day you just do. And for me, I did when I got married. My wife helped me through everything. So now, when I play these songs—and she’s six months pregnant, by the way—all I think about is, ‘I’m so glad I don’t have to feel this way anymore.’ It’s a really great feeling. I never have to worry about finding someone to date ever again in my entire life. So here is to all of you finding that person in your life, and never having to worry about your life being an analogy for dying in a shipwreck, like this song is.”

“Sorry for being long-winded, it’s what happens when you get old.”

You can watch of a fan-shot video of Lacey’s speech and his performance of “Play Crack The Sky” below.