There’s honestly never a dull moment for Lil Xan if his social media posts are any indication. If you thought his super public breakup from Noah Cyrus airing on Instagram was bad, then get ready because Xan just one-upped himself.
The rapper posted a video of his hospital bracelet, detailing that he was admitted after eating too many Flamin’ Hot Cheetos.
“I went to the hospital today, [and I’m] getting ready to pack for this tour,” he says in the video. ”I just want everyone to know I was in the hospital not due to any drugs, but I guess I ate too many hot cheetos. It ripped something in my stomach open, so I puked a little blood, [but] we good.”
A few hours later, Xan took to Instagram again to talk about the excitement for his upcoming tour, thank his fans and assure he’s the healthiest he’s ever been.
“I’m ready to kick off my third tour,” he says. “I just want to thank everybody for giving me this opportunity to come see y’all again. Last tour was amazing, this tour’s going to be even more amazing. I’ve never been more healthier and sober in my life. I feel so clear headed, and I just want to thank every one of you all for everything you’ve done. Without you guys, I would not be here.”
Xan’s sobriety became a topic of discussion following the death of fellow rapper Mac Miller. Miller passed away at the age of 26 from an overdose, and Xan revealed in an interview that it made him want to get clean.
Xan discussed Miller’s impact on him and his own sobriety on Adam22’s podcast No Jumper. He attended Miller’s final show Sept. 3 at the Hotel Cafe in Los Angeles where he says he looked good and told him he’s “the reason [he’s] even rapping.” Miller told Xan to “be safe” as the latter left the show, which was their final exchange.
The rapper referred to Miller as his “hero” as he related to him throughout his album cycles as they went through many of the same things. While Lil Peep and others’ passings also affected him, he says he didn’t show it as publicly as he did with Miller. The backlash he received from showing his emotions on an Instagram live heavily troubled him.
“Every comment on my livestream video was, ‘You’re next,’” Xan says. “[It was] every comment—there’s no love, so that’s why I’m not doing music after I finish my contract with Columbia. Columbia can go fuck themselves.”
Xan discussed being devastated by the overdose deaths and a hope to make his real name Diego his stage name. Xan also expressed this on TRL earlier this year shortly after Peep’s passing and delved into it again on No Jumper.
“I feel like I want to get sober now, like completely sober, but it’s so hard, bro, like so fucking hard,” he explains. “I want to be off of everything. I just want to feel [like] a normal person.”
While Xan has never gone to rehab despite a previous opportunity, he suggests that he would go now if he didn’t already have prior commitments.
“If I didn’t have a tour coming up, I would be in rehab right now,” he says. “I just can’t. I’m just tired of feeling this way. If rehab might help or detox, I’m down for any type of help.”
Xan’s tour begins Wednesday, and you can view dates here.